i can remember back in the days, how i used to not give 2 shits about love, romance, sex or loneliness. i would be content with watching some anime and drawing things and maybe trying to get another video onto youtube. but its all changed... i met people on my way through a fandom. i thought i loved him but no he in the end was an attention seeking whore, i then met some one els, at the time we were the perfect couple talking about how i would move down to england to go live where he lived it was all planed out you know. constant texts telling each other how muched we loved each other and how much we missed each other and in the end it was all jsut a big lie. theres this one guy recently i have bin attracted to... i think hes cute, smart and a great laugh, its only a shame that he has no time to play gmod with me >_>... but its not all happyness there, you see he has declared feelings for me also but he cant do anything as he is inlove with some one els (his wife). i realy want to be with him but at the moment i think its best to jsut leave them alone and to keep serching.. it could realy only end up in tears and broken hearts. so here i am rambling on and getting things of my back... drinking £3.99 bottles of merlot wine and wondering what i should get with my wage D: ahh well till next time...